The thing to remember with mental illness is that a person can go for years without exhibiting any of the symptoms, and then out of the blue, WHAM! they begin having problems again, after being free of symptoms for so long. Also remember that you are not your illness. Your illness doesn't own you. It's a part of who you are, sure, but there's more to you than the illness. Concentrate on those other things, those other aspects of who you are. Personally, I'm still struggling with the whole concept of "you are not your illness". I know this intellectually, but the heart knowledge just isn't there yet.