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Originally Posted by MiddleAgedMan
Today I feel… lonely and empty, mostly. Which is sort of like feeling nothing but not quite enough like feeling nothing to avoid the pain, if you know what I mean. And it’s my first day on this site, so when I took a look around here and read some of the things people are dealing with, I added self-loathing to the list of things that I was feeling. I don’t know why I feel this way and I wish it would stop.
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Firstly, welcome to the forums! It truly is a comfort knowing there are others who deal with these things too. (Not that we'd wish such things on anyone!) Totally know what you mean about nothing but not nothing enough. (And yikes! Sorry about adding the self-loathing!) Do you see anyone about this stuff? Like a psychiatrist? Therapist?
(And thanks vjdragonfly... Today BF suggested I try another tack. He's right I'm sure, it's just so hard to believe anything possible when the mind is stuck here. And yeah, despite my best efforts, he knew right away something was wrong. He's very good that way and sees past my unloveableness. I don't know why or how, but I appreciate it for sure...)