I'll post a more thorough response laters, but I just wanted to say thank you, shadowdancer. Your posts have been very insightful and have helped me on my journey incredibly.

There's a lot to digest there... but suffice to say it's helping me form a true picture of Sarah.

I don't think I mentioned it before but in regards to her desire to be celibate: I believe her words were along the lines of "born-again virgin". She wanted to start over, so to speak.

But what I've realised throughout this dialogue with you is she CAN'T, can she? After everything that's happened she can't simply restart with a clean slate... as MUCH as she wants to. What transpired between us on the breakup, sadly, was another example of her lurching towards something else... wanting relief and answers.

Thank you.