When I was in high school I was so depressed that I never spoke unless adressed. I would walk around by myself and look..just god awful. I can see why people thought I was unlikeable or just..crazy. It was hard for me to even be interested enough to want to talk to people/make friends..

I guess I'm afraid of reliving high school. People tell me College is so much different, but I know inside I still feel the same. People are the same wherever you go, and with no variables left unchanged..well..I don't exactly expect a picnic.
I realize that these feelings can go on for my entire life and I'll live in a Hell Hoop of unfixable misery. But I want things to change, I just need to rally every inch of strength..its just so hard..