Wow! Sounds like you have really gotten the shaft a lot in life. I recognising your anger. Thought I'd give a shot to let you know I use to carry the pain of your kind of anger. I almost died because of it. It is very toxic to your health. Maybe you can do some anger management? I know you are bitter but I also know you are reaching out in posting this. You had to register to post on the forums to let other people (the beings you say you do not care about) read how you are feeling. I is a very smart being. Why would you post if you do not care about other people? You sound really full of pain. I wish I could take it away.