sugahorse; please speak to someone about your sui thoughts. That really concerns me and I wish I could take your stress away. Wanted to wish you luck in your presentation and remember you are in a new position and you are expecting much more of yourself than your employer would.

Please reconsider speaking to different t-doc and / or see your p-doc. I just got home from work (it's 3:30 am here), so I need to go to sleep, but please, please contact the crisis line if you feel you need to.