I am dealing with something similar dex though I haven't been diagnosed with depression (that's just cuz I won't go...hubby's trying to make me go, lol).

I think you're right, it's vicious cycle. Good days are good. I feel like doing things, I get things accomplished, I'm "me". Bad days...aren't so hot. Being forced to stay home and "rest". Having no energy to do anything. Being in pain on top of that lack of energy.

I struggle to decide do I try to "push through" the pain/problems? Sometimes getting out of bed (or in my case, off the couch) isn't an option. Those are the worst.

In my job, I usually end up scheduling jobs ahead of time. This is incredibly difficult right now because I never know if next Friday is going to be a good day, or if it is going to be a bad day. However, if I say I will work, I have to. That just makes me not accpet jobs that I should, then I feel bad.

Like I said, a vicious, vicious cycle.

Thinking of you and wishing you a good weekend.