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"this above all,
to thine own self be true,
and it must follow,
as the night,the day,
for thou canst not be false to any man".......(or woman)

...a quote from.......shakespere's hamlet..............

.........and another one I heard..................

"the eskimos's have fifty different names for snow,
there ought be as many names for love"..............

..........and as for the "not caring,enough"?........hhmmmm.........

......I have always had my own problems with "more"........

.......it's niether "more or less".......it's the in-between......
........."the music between the notes"...........................

........so now, it's nature vs. nurture..................

........how I was raised.....and my universal placement.......or

..........society..........and............god?....................

.........what is...........and.........what ain't................

This past Sunday night, about 6:30pm, I heard the screaching of
tires and a mild crunch. I stood and peered between the mini blinds
of the window in the room were I reside. With a glance,my eyes absorbed
another accident, not twenty feet from were I stood, inside or behind my
confinement wall of safety.

A eighteen wheel truck had just crunched a chevy s-10 compact pick-up
truck. What my eyes had seen and my brain deciferred are two different
things.

.....and Micah........such difficult questions to answer, because of that
one word "love".............

I found myself in a position of "my love" for life and my fellow man. This
is love manifested to it's extremities. I have found, through reflection of
my experiance, that this is NOT the first time I have been in a situation
of this nature.

So, love in comparison...........??????????.....to what?....death?
.............equals....................awareness.............................
......."I cannot change what I am not aware of".....(quote..I forgot)

I will try and answer your question "why is it so painful all the time"?

From my experiance, I have found that; what my eyes see; what my brain
thinks; what my heart feels; the way my body acts................

...................all............are related to............................

........"teach me to care and not to care. teach me to be still".........

.........and in closing....it's not you my dear....it's just the way things are

........remember tho'........courage and fear are brothers.....(or sisters)


..................luv sparrow..................