Hi Mandy,

Thank you for sharing a bit more about yourself!

For how much I relate to the criteria, I relate almost at 100%. I do have achieved over the years to put a very good facade when I have to deal with the public, like work, meetings, interviews, things like that.

But I do not confront people unless it's for the protection of my kids, but never for myself. Like you I flight instead of defending myself and then I will isolate, sometime isolate way too much to the point I can become suicidal, I have to be very careful with this part and fight to try not to believe my mind which keeps telling me how a worthless s**t I am.

I'm always on my gard for the first sign of rejection. My self esteem and self worth is almost to zero so, in my mind and heart, who would like me enough to even want to say Hi to me.

You wouldn't believe how many posts I have written here and click delete before anyone could read it. Avoidancy is really strong in me but I do fight it like I'm doing right now.

Do I post this or not?

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