don't you get sick of trying to hide it? I hate pretending, I just want to tell the world "IT'S BLACK". People don't understand. If you say you're down they don't want to be near you. I was going to call my pdoc, but I really don't want a med change...I mean the current cocktail has been working so well....it took forever to find the right combo. I don't want to be in this place again, it is really hard on hubby and kids. I can't put them thru it again. I keep thinking if I get off my butt and go work out it will be better, but the willpower just isn't there. My oldest daughter is coming home for a few days with my grandson next week...I HAVE to get it together by then, I CANNOT be a depressed grandma.