Hiya,

man, I'm so glad you posted, it offers a lot of insight into what you have to go through.

All I have is a little college and a few ideas-I want to specialize in APD.
I hate that there is little help for APD, and that really drives me crazy becuase everyone just gets so mad at the way you are, they don't realize how hard it can be just to "function correctly" in everyday life. You've got a lot on your shoulders man, and I'm blown away in your perserverence-you never stopped trying.

Think about just the idea of what you go through-
you don't want to hurt your family, you constantly gotta be on top of yourself and watch for impulsive behavior, you have to keep your anger in check-dang man, who knows what else, those alone are a hefty plateful!

I don't even understand how society wants you to care so much, when in turn they just get mad at the way you are-and do the same thing to you-not care about you! Such hypocrisy.

Your dad didn't care about you, your mom didn't stand up for you guys, showing little care in that regard too, and people expect you to even know how or understand care?

I donno man, I just believe we can't fight apathy with apathy.
Thank you for trying, and by your post, I'd say your efforts are making huge leaps of progress.