Ben, I rarely spend any money on dope. My sisters boyfriend is a drug dealer and user so he gives my sister dope and she shares with me. Sometimes her boyfriend gives me dope as well. I've spent money on meth maybe 10 times my whole life. I always bought my crack, but not my meth. It's always usually been given to me. Before I got into treatment the first time, I'd spend maybe $200 a week on crack and sometimes a little more for booze to go with it.

Allan, you're right. There are some positives in my life. Guess the negatives outweigh it so it's sometimes hard to focus on the good. I'll try.