(((Trippin)))
Please know that I am so sorry this is hitting you so hard. It will pass and don't mean to sound ... well, you know. I understand just how hard (ok, it *feels* impossible) it is to believe that in those times, such is how badly BP messes with our sense of reality. But it *is* lying to you. Please see if you can get an emergency appointment, ok? Even if they won't schedule one per se, be sure to have them put you on the cancellation list or at the least, refer you. Be sure to let them know just how bad it is for you right now. They need to know. Do not gloss over from pride or fear. Please. Meanwhile, know that we are all here pulling for you.