This is a topic that is pretty near and dear to my heart so I hope you don't mind me chiming in. I really relate to all the things you are feeling here and after 2 years of therapy, I terminated last Spring. I count myself among the lucky to have a wonderful T that I am very attached to.

After about a month and a half, I went back. It's not that I wasn't doing ok, I was. I just had some big things going on in my life and I missed her guidance and support. Sure enough, we're about 3 months into it again and it's been very healing for me.

I'll never "terminate" again. What is more comfortable for me is to call on her when I need her, knowing that I can handle a lot on my own from what she has taught me. I agree with Rainbow, talk with him about your feelings. I felt so much pressure about the "ending" when in fact, her door was never shut. It's good to review what has transpired, talk about what you have learned, ways you've grown etc. but I think it's also ok to say I want to try some time on my own. It's so hard when we are attached to our T's.

I got so headstrong about terminating and going it on my own I didn't really listen to how she felt about it. I wish I had. That being said, we picked right up and now I am truly moving into maintenance mode. It works for me to know I can go back. It doesn't have to be forever (of course unless there are other issues which do happen).

Good luck.