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Old Aug 13, 2010, 11:23 AM
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Originally Posted by Rhiannonsmoon View Post
Hello cherrios,

Agree with Rohag. But also you need to get out of the "no point being here" mentality It is ok to be the best you can be phsyically, but to try and go past that you will undo ALL of the good work yo have achieved up to now. If you are stuck with an illusion you must modify that to an achievable aim that supports your current level of mobility and be very thankful that you have a life to live,

Rhiannon
Hi Rhiannonsmoon

I do agree. But doing something and saying something are completely different things. I want to be happy with what I have been given, but I can't....I am so MAD that I would push myself to do anything to reach this fantasy of getting back to my life before my accident. And when I see improvements with every physical therapy visit or surgery I feel that sometimes it is possible to believe in this fantasy. Although, when a doctor tells me something that makes me upset, like "Don't do this...". I go from a complete high of optimisim to an ABSOLUTE low. This "high to low" behavior happens a lot, but I can't let go of this fantasy yet because if I did the illusion of what my life was would be totally gone. I am totally messed up.....this is why other people should have been saved than me. I am not satisfied....and although this suits me, I know it is wrong to feel this. I trully don't know what to do.

Cherrios