The maintenance thing from rainbow8 sounds like a good option, if you like your T so much.

I have soms huge problems with my T and seriously consider terminating. I tried to talk about it last session before vacation, but she changed the subject twice. So I feel like if I terminate, I will have to do it all by myself.

But in your case it's you who's afraid of talking about termination? Can you be ready to stop, if you're actually not even ready to talk about it?