After I posted this thread, I got very ill. I have a bad headache that I cannot get rid of. I got shakey and had to stop reading, posting adn looking at the stuff. I had to log out and go to bed. Meditation agitated me. I napped, but was not restful. I woke with much the same feeling and have a hungry feeling that I cannot fill...no food works for it...nothing here satisfies it. I have a feeling of starvation.......
I wonder if it is another psychosomatic thing...memory? I have been working on the neglect adn abuse in my infancy...hmmm.