Was honest with my brother about my feelings and fears for the first time,he confiscated my pills, prayed for me,held me,and said stuff I really needed to hear. He is now cheering me up with comedies and f00d, and making sure I stay safe until this passes... I don't think an emergency room would ever be neccessary as long I stay safe, as I tend to cycle quite rapidly. Which then leaves me feeling STUPID for ranting in the first place and making everybody worry! But it's something I need to do, so Thanks guys for always being so supportive!