Just realized I have serious guilt issues... Duh you'd think someone with above average intelligence and acute self-awareness would've deduced that by now. Got rid of bf b/c I felt guilty for being such a mess. Then felt guilty b/c of the break up. Took online PC advice and tried being responsible, and opened up to my brother. Really opened up. He took great care of me,and I was doing great for a few hours. Wanted to get to bed just now (it's nearly 2am here) and felt such comfort and relief that I was finally able to reach out (bonus, to someone LIVING IN THE SAME HOUSE) felt such love,warmth and much needed comfort. Then came the inevitable GUILT of involving my baby brother in this mess that is I. Granted his n0t an actual baby, he's nearly 20,but with my dad passed on, he's been shouldering added responsibilties in our family,and I feel CRAP for dumping this on him to0. Guess there's no escape or even relief for me. I beat myself up when I deal alone,and beat myself even harder when I seek support. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? I'm tired of me,and don't blame anyone else if they are too... PS. Thanks for all the support,you are honestly lifesavers, the lot of u. XOXO