I found out that My weekly T and DBT group, the cost is goinbg to be absorbed by them. Meaning I get services for free! They are so giving, they are a religious company and so they have a policy that people who can't afford treatment can still get services. And while that is great, ironically I still feel depressed and having urges for impulsive behaviors. I also feel pretty worthless and useless due to my work ability. It is awful.