Aw, I am so sorry for what you have been through. I haven't had much physical altercations as you (aside from the abuse I took from my step father at a young age) but I do understand your pain. The abuse I went through wasn't fun, but wasn't as bad as some people have it. He didn't get as violent as he could have. I know how that goes though. I really wish there was something I could do to take away some of the pain. I've gotten better with my depression lately, but it never completely goes away. I am glad you are a member here though, and you should come on more often and let us know how you are doing. If you want to talk, I am here. You can PM or IM me, just let me know.