Yep, school hard for me too. Massive panic attack leaving son at school for first time at start of year. I only have to take him one day a week, my mum takes him other days because I can't handle it. I panic every morning he goes but at least I'm in my own space to calm down. I still don't know why. I try not to let my other smaller children see so they don't end up stressing about going to school when its their turn. I hope it to be a good experience for them and the school has been carefully chosen. All a bit yuk! Good luck to you.