Silent, I am sooo sorry you are dealing with this stuff.... The "demons" are the ones who made us this way...truely evil. I wish you were able to find some safe peaceful place to just be.
What happens if you switch around him? Several times you and the little one have said that...what happens? What does he do? (If it is not too hard to talk about).
My heart aches for all of you. Safe hugs and acceptance of the many facets of you.