Unfortunately it had gotten bad. I use that excuse all the time, hoping something will change, that I’ll magically get better. That obviously will not happen. That memory for me is still so real, it’s reality. For me those triggers have gotten harder and harder to deal with. I used to be able to distract myself completely and avoid all slip ups. Now, I’m not so fortunate. I’ve always avoided goals simply because I never reach them and get even more down on myself.

I hope one day I can be the one telling my story, but until then it it unwritten and the struggles still continue. (It’s hard to stay motivated at times)
Thanks for that offer, it means a lot.

-Iz