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Originally Posted by sanityseeker
That's just it Amanda. Why do you still have to suffer if you are on meds? Why don't the meds work better? I just don't get it. It makes me angry actually. I take a pill every morning to maintain my thyroid level. It works like a charm. Why can't they do the same with my BP symptoms? It just doesn't make sense to me and that is a big part of why I have gone this long without them. I am still waiting to hear from that person for whom the meds provide them a significantly better quality of life then I am living without the meds. I read the forums and it seems meds or no meds everyone here hits hard times just like I do. I guess any improvement is worth something but I just think they should be able to do better then that for us.
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I am on Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Risperdal, and Buspar. I'm 100% stable (for the first time and it's lasting). My meds changed my life. It took 3 yrs to get it right, but hot damn, is it ever right now. So now you've heard from one person for whom meds have not only provided a significantly higher quality of life, I'm well (as in not at all sick) and some days I don't even think the word "bipolar" anymore, whereas before it was the King that ruled my world. My quality of life now is as good as or probably better than a "normal" person's. I never thought I'd ever be able to say that again, but I can. I feel perfect--not manic perfect...just perfect as in I'm myself again (felt like I almost forgot who I was over these last years) and I love myself and my life, and feeling normal with normal emotions is a precious gift I had to work hard for. I'm completely, fully functional. Setbacks? I'm sure at some point, but this is my magic combo.
My flavor of bipolar has been a NASTY one. BP1, ultra rapid cycling with suicidal/dysphoric depression and dysphoric/mixed mania and almost never ever ever a normal hour, much less a normal day. So maybe there's still hope? I think there is. I KNOW there is. (Although I've wondered exactly what you are wondering for years.)