I love your posts. It's a legit concern. I have every faith that you will make the right decision. Your parents deserve their own counsel. Good for them. My parents never sought counselling and had a very stony, cold, abeit long marriage. My father's life turned around 360 after my mother died. It's like he was reborn. Now he's in a relationship that is life affirming. He might have had that with my mother if they'd had counselling. I love the way you acknowlege how things make you feel. It's good that you have a place to vent and share. Well done you.