Hi, Therapyconfusion! Among other things, this caught my attention:
For therapy to work, the therapist should see the client as they are, not as the therapist hopes they are and not as the client thinks the therapist would like to see them.

As a professional, your therapist (and clinic) is paid to care for you. She is not an authority figure to be pleased. If something is getting in the way of her forming an accurate picture of how you're really doing, tell her. That is, do your best to tell her. After all, you are in distress and intimidation is part of that; for you (for me!) telling her is not an easy thing to do. Even knowing "she can handle it as a professional" doesn't make it easier for you to do.

Could you go into your session with a print-out of your above post?

Wishing you good outcomes!