this is such a huge misconception, that people SI to get attention. I have never wanted attention, in fact my greatest wish most of the time is to disappear. A lot of my social anxiety comes from not wanting people to see me, it's also what makes therapy so excruciating sometimes. I do NOT want anyone's attention on me.

I haven't cut for 6mos or so but I was a cutter for years. I've never done it for attention. Ever.

I cut because it feels good in the moment, and later, when the pain sets in, that feels good too because I deserve the pain. Win/win, which is what makes it so difficult to stop.