roseleigh, I appreciate your reply - I know you didn't mean attention in a bad way. Just, usually people mean it in a bad way, and sometimes those of us who have SIed get sensitive about it. Don't you?
I don't think I do it for attention though. I think it's a way of.. processing something. I don't know. It makes me really calm. Maybe a part of it is attention-seeking, maybe -- in the way Rapunzel says, maybe right now I'm SIing because I'm trying to get help.
Rapunzel, thanks for the reply -- I especially relate to:
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Deep down, I really don't think that the things I know as better ways to cope will really work for me. I'm afraid to find out that I'm right, and nothing ever will work.
Maybe all there is is pain and hurt, and if I started coping, I wouldn't exist.
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Those resonate with me a lot.
WePow, if it's because someone left ink on you, are SI behaviors a way to show that the ink is there? A way to never forgive those people for hurting us? Is the SI a way to say, "No, I'm NEVER going to be okay, because of YOU"