((((((((((((((((((((((Bama)))))))))))))))))))))))

I read this with tears in my eyes. I hear your pain. If possible try to take only one day at a time, even one hour at a time if needed. Get a calendar and see how many hours, days you can go without. You do have support here whenever you need it. We care about you.
Thanks for posting this and letting us be there for you.

Leslie