putting trigger to be safe no SA but strong sexual content may trigger

i dont know what to say about some things i did when in mexico.i have no idea if i should even try to find a way to let t know that things really are wrong and getting dangerous.when i go out with friends i have always been a bit flirtatious with others.male or female but i have always been able to draw a line at least at this point in my life.this is what was going on at a little hole in the wall club my friend and i fount in cancun.we would go thare and drink and dance a bit to nasty wiyh all the workers and flash the cars driving by and stuff like that.it got us free drinks all night.we have gone to this bar often when we have gone to cancun and it has never gone any further than this always fun.this time seemed differnt with me and my behavior and my willingness to controle myself.in fact i am covered with bruses all over my arms from me startin to wrestle with the guys and it getting real ruff.thats just not me maybe old me but not now me.my friend was down with it and all was safe.in fact i gave no real thought to what i was doing.turns out this is a big problem.the next day something upsets me really bad.i a girl in our party told me to shut up or something i got unbelieveably angry.i left them all in the hotel room and went to the loby and drank 4 double taquilas before my BF came down to check on me i told her i was going to the club and she came with me.i dont know what happened if i was angry or wanting to have fun or forget life or what but things got way out of controle.we were dancing on the bar with guys no big deal did it all the time.flashing flirting,etc.but then i'm taking it a step further ang i'm pulling out this strangers private parts and playing with it teasing and chalenging him etc...i was thinking nothing of it i was just playing a game it meant nothing to me if we had sex or anything it didnt matter i just wanted to be doing what i was doing.when my BF saw what was going on she just about fell off her seat.the guy i was doing this with didnt speak english so it was hard to get him to back off i guess bbut my BF got me out of the bar and on our way back to the hotel.on the way home my friend grabs me and yells at me i cant beliece you were -uckin- doing that.what the he== is wrong with you?at the time i couldnt understand what her problem was.if i wanted to do what i was doing what was it her busness.now i'm kind of glad she was thare.i really dont know what came over me exsept i wanted to be doing what i was doing and i cared about nothing else...this happen to anyone else.i wonder if it is important to try and find a way to let T know something is really wrong with the way i was thinking then.or maybe it was ok i dont know .but i think a lot of you know how hard it is for me to even open my mouth in T and i seriously wonder if this is worth trying.i just dont think it will happen and i am at home now.