I think for me, using old coping mechanisms is
1. A way to show how very much pain I am in to my T
2. Try to get my T's attention
3. Feel hopeless and helpless
4. Want immediate results, even if long term they are bad for me.
Jexa sending you
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV 
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost