((((((((((Ozzie))))))))))))) back atcha.
Thanks.

My son and I never got to say good bye We were told by his therapist at the time he would come home when he got out of residential 10 visitations later visitation was pulled on a bogus charge that took 2 and a half years to clear me, after the caseworker who trumped it up was removed from the case and fired. Now because of state law any child in care more than a year is not returned theres no hope of him coming home. Visitation has been reinstated and is at his therapist discression. She says he's not ready - suicidal, running away, threatening to kill others, his file also says words like hallusinations and psychotic. I understand they want his stable and the waiting game is NOT my better game of cards dealt.

I dont think of him as lost. In my family when a person is lost they have dead. (Ex in conversations yea we lost so and so the other night to cancer..) so I haven't lost him. He will come home and I WILL be here when he does. I plan on being at my boys high school graduation with his copy of the key to this appartment. Like my friend emailed me - I am just going to keep finding hope in hell, people who know us don't call us survivors for nothing.

You hang in there too. ((((((((Ozzie)))))))))))))