Trying - sorry I am late to this thread. But this is something I have talked about with my T. Some of us NEED a person who we can depend on to always be there for us. My T has his own T. My T has told me that he doesn't go in to see his T unless he needs to do so. So he may go months without seeing his T. Then something may happen and he will need to see his T twice in one week. Then he can go for months again without the need for a session. But the good thing is that his T is always there for him. He finally has someone in his life who he trusts to be there when he needs that person there.

Thankfully, my T is kinda working on being that type of T for me. I am still afraid that he will dump me or hate me or expect me to make a go of it alone. But that is just my fear. I feel that if I am willing to do the work, that my T can become my "life T" ... that anchor person.

Have you thought about setting up something with your T where you can come in only when you need to do so?