Homo Sapien, I hope your dreams stop, I hope you find some sort of resolution with the disturbing subject matter. Having such dreams is in no way a reflection of you as a person, the dream is simply your unconscious mind's way of trying to deal with something, communicate some idea or feeling to your waking mind. There is no definitive, sure-fire interpretation for dreams in general. Like individuals, dreams are unique, and any stab at interpreting them, by anyone, is nothing but guess-work. So don't get your hopes up over finding a meaning for the dream you had, it might never happen. I've had a lot of dreams I struggled to understand. I kept a dream journal, consulted various dream dictionaries, talked to lots and lots of people, some psychiatrists or psychologists, some not. The un-educated people I talked to were no more or less competent in offering meanings for my dreams than the psychologists and psychiatrists. Dream dictionaries were no help at all. I don't know where I'm going with all this, exactly, just don't expect to get any clear-cut answers. If you do, that's great, but don't get your hopes up.