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Nupoet64 · Aug 15, 2010, 02:36 PM

DPS...I am weeping inside for those within you. I feel the hopelessness, I too ahve that from time to time. I am so sorry you feel no safe place to just be. To me love is something I did not know or understand adn never felt for myself. But I have a wonderful husband now who has taught me so much about love. The "throws of passion" are not love...that is messed up, but those of us bearing the scars of trauma have been taught that that is love. I have learned over the past 14 years ( with my husband) that love is unconditional, it is a gift, it is steady, it is a committment, it is friendship, it is patient, it is kind, sometimes it is tough, but it is always there. It grows as we do, it never stays exactly as it was yesterday...it gets bigger and stronger each day. Sometimes it is quiet adn you may think it is gone, but then it shows itself and you see it was just being quiet and gentle and kind.
If we do not know what love is in the chaos that has no love, how can we love ourselves? We ahve to keep trying to learn how...we must continue to try....sometimes we must stop and rest, but as long as we keep getting up and moving forward, even if we are crawling, there is hope. And we are so we deserve love...we deserve love just because we ARE. You are kind and gentle and those within are love...they are constant, protective, aware, observant, committed, patient ( at times), tought, kind, gentle, friends....you....they ARE love.
Much love and support and many kind gentle healing hugs to you and all the facets of you....