I agree with Araya. I played soccer in first grade and I remember that my parents wouldn't sit with the other parents or socialize with them or anything. They'd sit there in lawn chairs and watch the game. Is there anyone you could bring along with you, a friend or someone, to watch the game with and talk to? You could always bring a book to read if you feel uncomfortable and need something besides the game to focus on. I understand how you feel and I too am glad you are working on your phobia. Sending good wishes x