so as many of you know I suffer greatly from panic and anxiety and fear of aging and dying

and no meds help me and therapy doesn't either and I have no one around and I cannot function well

I struggle every second

well, today, I made myself go to a bikram yoga class and I was panicky and anxious the entire time

I thought I was going to die from a heart attack for 90 minutes

Afterwards I met some nice people and talked and it felt good, i felt better

It is supposed to be very beneficial and healing and calming

I sat in the lounge area a long time because I did not want to come home to my empty house and lonely life of fear

So of course on the way home I experienced the anxiety again because all the issues of my life came flooding back to me which are the perpetuators of my anxiety

I don't know how to remove these stresses from my life because no matter what I do to cope or help me, these things and people will never go away

I want to just go and run away to someplace and leave everything and everyone behind

I want to keep going to yoga but I am afraid of my anxiety and panic and about aging and dying while doing it but I need it