((((((elliemay))))))

If I were in your situation, I would make myself go, even though I might not WANT to go.

I know that my T cares about me, and that he is an excellent T...AND I know that he says stupid things sometimes...AND I know that he sometimes says one thing and I hear another. I would want to go to talk to him to see what happened.

My T has said some dumb things and when we've talked about it, he is able to look back and say "I was a bad T at that moment", and we move on.

He's said some things that REALLY made me mad, but that he still stood by...and we had to find a way to work around whatever it was, or agree to disagree.

And usually, he's said something and meant it one way, and I've interpreted it another way, and there is a huge disconnect between the reality of the situation and the situation in my head.

You've been with your T a long time, and he sounds like such a good T. Give yourself the chance to go and work this out with him.