El, take a deep breath. Please do not quit over a dream/nightmare. It may just be your fear of him learning some truth that you have buried deep inside...something you feel comfortable sharing here, because here everyone ( almsot everyone) can relate to the confusion and the turmoil surrounding the issues we all deal with.
I pray that you find peace and a calm place inside to rest.....much support and safe hugs.....besides, we would miss you...