Yes, you're so correct. I have to force myself to do everything. It's absolute torture. Everything I have to do feels like it's killing me. It's like being on death row everyday. (Not that I know what that would be like.) I suppose some of it is such a terrible fear of punishment that i live with alot of the time. no matter how much i tell myself that I'm not going to be punished it doesn't make a difference. Glad i'm not the only one but sorry that you endure this torment as well.