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Originally Posted by googley
I was really hoping that the good news I about getting a babysitting job and so being able to afford T would make me feel better. But it doesn't. I still feel awful. I really just wanted these things to make me feel better. I really needed to feel better before the winter when things usually get worse. And now I don't know what will happen.  |
I understand where you are coming from. I lost my job in December 2008 and have been looking for work ever since. Then, last Monday, I got an interview offer, interviewed on Tuesday, & a job offer by late Tuesday afternoon. Right exactly at the point my unemployment was going to run out, too. You think I'd be thrilled, right?
No, I'm not. I feel worse than I did before I finally secured a job. Why? I don't know. My guess is that depression short-circuits how the brain feels emotions & maybe even makes it--or us--forget how to feel good when good things happen.
Change, good or not so good, is always a hard thing to face too. You get used to a situation, even sometimes achieve a level of comfort in the way things are, & then a big change comes out of nowhere & shakes everything up. You'd think if was a change you were working towards would make you happy, right? And then when it doesn't, you don't know why & that makes you feel even worse.
I wish I could say why you & I are not feeling good feelings in response to positive events...but I can't. All I can do for both of us is to hope we get better & pray.
Try to take care of yourself.
Kim