Thanx all. I have put a lot out there for the world to deal with with me. I am having a hard time with the fact I am letting it out. I usually keep it all in. I'm starting to post more I guess I still feel a bit bad because I don't like to feel so "open". Its a vulnerability I am a little uncomfortable with. I hold back most of the time. Fear of judgment. I shouldn't I know. Its hard to break out of old thought processes. Glad you are all so understanding.