It's an average; it's an average. It comes down to how many times we plan to put ourselves through the crash on the belief we don't needs the meds anymore. Or on the idea that they don't work anyway, so why bother. I so completely understand and have been there. Medicated, I hope you'll be able to get back with your pdoc and find the med combination that keeps you most stable. Try not to get too frustrated. We all understand very well what you are going through.