Hello bridgie,

I think you hit the nail on the head when you said "When I'm feeling fine they are there".

This indicates to me (me only so it's only an opinion), that you only get down when you are alone or having people around you is what makes you feel fine or good.

Based on that opinon I think (and this is a thought not a diagnosis) that you may place more importance on others and rely on everything outside of yourself for a feeling of wellbeing. To me and again this is a thought not a diagnosis that it would be beneficial to develop ways of self communication and self motivation which place light and emphasis on your positives and on the good that you do.

You are so highly valued here at pc bridgie, everyone loves you and cares about your support and input, I value the messages you give to others because they have some very important messages for me in there.

I promise you that when you communicate on here, there are many more people than those who reply, who take on the advice and the support you give to the OP. I'm not stroking your ego here, I am telling you what I honestly believe to be true. You're gentle, kind, caring, funny at the right times and always supportive and you just don't see how giving you are, and I feel that the amount of giving does not balance with the amount you receive, and because of that defecit you become down and sad, looking for at least some valdation of your worth, in a relationship which by its very nature is keeping you apart and seperated from the closeness, caring, conversation and validation you need.

It would be lovely if your bf lived close to you, because I think you need that closeness. I take my hat off to you though because there is no way I could sustain a long distance relationship,

Rhiannon