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I've read a lot of Greenleaves' posts on the other board that she's referring to. What she's describing is very damaging, to Greenleaves and to others. I'd rather see her encouraged to work on improving her control than see others offering her a way to abdicate her free will. Does that make sense?

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That makes a lot of sense to me. I know I have to change my behaviour. A good friend told me that when I do things like blame others for pushing me to the edge it is like an abuser saying that the victim pushed them over the edge...

I get that. I will remember that analogy and the broken leg and cliff analogy that JustBen gave to me.

I have to work on my impulsivity and control my delusions. My p-doc used the word "delusion" to describe when I think that others want me dead. He increased my Risperdal. Hopefully that will help me with those horrible thoughts.

I'm willing to change. I'm taking my time-out to work on myself. I'm going to try to be less selfish. I think when I am able to return to PsychoBabble that I will focus solely on helping others for a while....

That is what I'm doing right now. I'm saving my replies posters. When I get back, I will post all my replies. I can't afford to be blocked again. I really have to learn to control my behaviour. I want to make a good impression for when I meet everyone in Toronto next year.