Yes, what questions you ask are what you want to learn about and understand but you never give of yourself and answer the questions too, but appear to sit back and learn from us and our struggling with the answer.

Yes, you've been confused by someone calling white, black, but that didn't make white, black, no matter that you were brainwashed and/or the person was an "expert". Your job, if you choose to accept it is to work on figuring out what you believe is white and what you believe is black and resisting brainwashing; something only you can do and only by someone trying to convince you of something else.

I "know" what I know! I own it. It may be black or white and/or you may think the opposite but good luck convincing me of it unless it is what I want/where I'm going. That's why it took me 18 years of therapy with the same therapist, over a 30 year period, instead of, say, 2 Doesn't matter, I was in there struggling the whole way, looking for my true north. Found it!