Inner: you sew? thats so cool, so do I! I have like 5-6 machines but only 2 with me. I make all kinds of stuff when I can get the "want to". For awhile I was going to try and use it to make money but like everyother job I try it fizzels out in about a day or so and I'm back to my hole... Glad you were able to do something fun and productive =)

Poly: Good to hear your feeling "normal" although I believe that's a relative term as normal for me is severely depressed. Don't feel embarrassed of your moods even when you feel superior. Moods are something we have a hard time controlling, just being aware of them is key.

Potter: Glad your having an ok day, my ex t says its not necessarily a bad thing to be a bit depressed and we should learn to sit with the feelings so that we can realize they wont destroy us and be more likely to notice when they change and that helps us accept that they WILL change.

Momma: Oh by all means yes I argue with myself constantly about everything. I have 3 persona's (not quite like DID where they take over and I know nothing of what happens) and they all quite regularly have their own separate opinions/ thoughts and vie for the forefront of MY thoughts. Sometimes they can be very insulting. Sorry you feel blah, try to do something that takes complete concentration and makes you feel really good (sorta like inner did with sewing).

Medicated: Sorry you are feeling sad but as I said earlier just recognize it is a feeling and will pass just as everything does eventually and its ok to sit with the feeling and experiment with how it actually feels. Hope your pdoc can help.

Queen: Glad it's a good day but as far as sleep is concerned they tell me we all need a certain ammnt or our feelings/ thoughts/ perceptions will begin to suffer and it will be harder to have control over those things. Me personally I prefer as little sleep as possible but they insisted on putting me on Seroquel to help me sleep =P

Poly: IDK if everyone does it or not, but I do notice for those of us with BP and anxiety it's a lot stronger and harder to control/ think clearly as a result of...

Lauru: Sounds like you have the same problem as I do with being alone. As long as there's someone there to care what's up with me I'm fine but leave me to my own devices and I get very depressed and lose site of what ever point there may be to life. Just try to find something you enjoy doing to occupy that time, I know its hard esp to get the "want to" but if you can it will help with that. You and I are in need of learning to love ourselves and be our own best friend...

Vj: Once again you commented on everybody else, but how are YOU doing today?

Me: IDK how I am today as I just got up and havent even finished my coffee. I know my body is sore from all the physical activities I've been doing lately (moving from Fl to Ga, setting up the camper trailer to sleep in, went muddin with my dad the other night and got stuck in a mud hole that at the shallow part came up to my waist etc...) Been so busy concentrating on just spending time with my dad and talking to yall I forgot to pay attention to how I feel. When I do stop to take a moment and evaluate the depression sets in so I have been avoiding THAT like the plague.

Wondering how my claim is proceeding, I know the adjudicator is working like crazy to get the file off her desk and I know she had to talk to my x tdoc and have her fill out more papers. Thought for a minute the tdoc was going to need to talk to me again and I got all excited only to find out she doesnt and got sad again... Just hoping it will go ahead and get approved so I dont have to fight it. Would make life a lot more bearable. Very soon I will have to start worrying about money for insurance again but for now just trying to enjoy each day with my father as it comes and putting off thinking about that...