I'm in tears.

I just got good news from my school, but in the short term it means more work/studying for me, and I just can't handle that right now. I was already on the brink of completely overwhelmed, and I think this new demand just pushed me over the edge.

I'm sure I was (dysphoric) manic over the weekend, but I don't feel manic at all any more. Now I just feel really, REALLY depressed, unmotivated, and hopeless... like I'm destined to be a failure, so why do I keep trying?? Sometimes I think it would be so much easier to just admit defeat and give up.

My appointment is in half an hour and I'm a teary wreck.

I guess I've found the "real" me... and it isn't pretty.