Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in the phone thing. And not just the harder ones(!) Psyching, sitting down, breathing... trying not to pass out... yeah. It seems such an anomaly with the proliferation of everyone on their phones constantly, but there ya have it. It's ok. Someone's got to show restraint, right?

Try if you can not to be afraid of what they might be thinking. Might is a pretty big word there, and it also might not be the case at all. I'd also be willing to bet that you are more capable than you are giving yourself credit for. Beware the Beastie of Should. He's can be unrealistic, but he's not unreal.